BlackcloudSenior Contributor
I don’t feel belonged
I just know that I don’t feel belonged in any social settings, like EVER.
Thats part of the reason why I chose to volunteer at my current fav role (kinda) on a fortnightly basis instead of weekly, but also why I don’t wanna look for any work because the coworkers side of things is the part that I care most about than the role itself, especially if the majority of the coworkers consist of the people around my age and are in the same generation as me. I get jealous when everyone else in my age group talk to each other but I’m the only one that isn’t part of any conversations with them.
Well today is the day I’m meant to go and volunteer there, but I’m not gonna go there anyway cause I’m already tired from heading out of home 4 days a week. Plus, also because of the other reason I mentioned above.
Actually, the other volunteer there that I was planning to work with for every shift now is actually not gonna be there today either from what she told me last fortnight. But yeah.
I know why I come off as unapproachable to many people, pretty much everyone. But at the same time, that’s not something that I can expect myself to change or that other people can expect me to change…because I’ve always been like this ever since I was in childcare… when
I just wish many people, especially the people in my generation (Gen
z) can accept that, but they don’t. They just all choose to avoid talking to me. I usually don’t talk to people first because that’s what I always do & im scared to do that.
