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Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for almost two years and have been on antidepressants since I was 13 but yesterday I started this mood that is like a small little engine that won't leave I had a burst of energy for 4pm till 9:30pm where I was dancing listening to music and sending guys I don't know my nudes on reddit and talking some crazy shit with them thinks I never say or do ever but right now I'm having a calm moment I feel tired like I need to sleep as I only got 4hrs sleep last night maybe I'm just overtired but I'm laughing at things that ain't funny having random bursts of laughter the whole day I have not been able to hold a conversation for more then a few minutes until they let me ramble on about stuff like the cult leader who got me to send him nudes lol or all the men I'm dirty talking but I don't feel like I wanna have sex with them but I do at the same I just did it because I felt out of control but in control at the same time I could of stopped but I didn't I watched a movie with my dad and put the phone away and I'm still feeling like I'm faking everything I do for attention to get attention but I can't stop can you sit down and watch a movie in mania without talking even when you want to say silly stuff but your dad is right there i have bought train tickets for tomorrow to leave this town with nothing but the clothes on my back there is some planning because i have to wait till the train leaves tomorrow but my case manager knows something is not right with me so i cant leave with a bag incase they see me ya know I just have to leave with my phone and clothes on my body tomorrow to another town to be free to feel free when I think about it i feel free when i think about staying home i feel stuck and terrible so i can feel terrible emotions its a mix of emotions i feel right now
Could it be mania? Or the start of it? What do u think?

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In response to: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Re: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Hello @CH677666 @moderator and welcome.

I've been diagnosed with bipolar and yes what you're experiencing sounds to me like mania re the energy and insomnia and behaviour. You've done well to pick up on it. My concern for you is that running off to another town without packing anything or knowing what you'll be doing or where you'll be going isn't really safe. Are you able to talk to your dad and your case manager about what's happening for you? Even just your concerns if you don't want to go into detail?

Please take care. I'm glad you've reached out here. Do you want to talk about it with a SANE counsellor?

In response to: Re: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Re: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

I'm already on a train to Newcastle away from Tamworth with nothing but clothes on my back and some pre workout for the caffeine bruh lol

In response to: Re: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Re: Is this mania? Or am I looking for attention?

Hi @CH677666, I share @Dimity's concerns about your safety right now.

Is your dad, or your CM aware of where you are right now? If you 're not feeling comfortable reaching out to them, I really encourage you to call SANE's helpline on 1800 187 263 to chat with the counsellors there about what's happening for you.

I'm also going to shoot you through an email, so keep an eye out for that in your inbox.

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