Not sure if I dont like therapy or my psychologist?

Hi everyone I have been seeing a psychologist since early 2016 but I dont think im getting anything out of it. At the begining of last year I started seeing the councillor at my school for symptoms of depression and chronic stress at first I was slightly uncomfortbale but I got over that in the first 1-2 sessions and now I enjoy going sure I still get uncomfortbale when discussing my issues especially when talking about my self esteem and low self worth but I still enjoy going and I get on well with her. Anyway after my first few sessions she suggested that i go see my GP to get a mental health care plan which I did after she diagnosed me with depression and then my mum found a psychologist close to our home and I started seeing my first psychologist, she was ok she was nice but once again I felt uncomfortbale but i got more used to her but she didnt think I was depressed probably because I am quite reserved and reluctant to talk about my negative emotions in a serious way. With her I was working on understnading my emotions beacuse all things im feeling tend to be expressed as anger and when around other people if Im sad it just becomes anger and I lash out but if im alone it just turns into very negative view of my self and life and I just cry and feel like everyone would be better off without me etc. While seeing the psychologist (I saw her once every 1-1 1/2 months) I continued seeing the councillor at school (i much prefer her to the psychologist I just get on better with her and we just seem to connect better) and I told her an issue that had been on my mind a lot and was causing a great deal of stress and worry and that was I thought I might of been transgender. After a few (3-4) sessions with my psychologist I switched to a new psychologist who specialised in Gender Identity Disorder, she luckly worked in the same practice as my original one did after about 3 sessions she diagnosed me with Gender Identity Disorder. We also talk about my self esteem and negative attitiude on everything I just dont think I connect with her I kind of feel awkward seeing her and during sessions i feel kind of "off" and uncomfortable and I once again dont think the therapy is helping me I still feel just as bad as I did before actually I think Im getting worse Iv now developed anxiety and Im having anxiety attacks about everything Im scared to get in a car im scared of being on the train I cant sleep beacuse im scared something bad will happen when I sleep im specifically terrified of spiders and i feel like they are all over me and are out to get me and that they are going to bite me while im asleep and ill die and the transgender thing is really having a negative effect on my lefe im just so worried and stressed about it and it just makes everything much harder. I like talking to my school councillor, I even prefer talking to my GP but shes going on maternity leave in a month, I really dont like seeing my psychologist (and I didnt really like seeing my old one either) I dont know why It just feels "off" but It will be real hard to switch psychologists beacuse the one I currently see is the only one who specialises in Gender issues that isnt in the city and real expensive shes the only one in my area and I really dont want to be more of a burdern on my family than I already am by making them drive me to the city. I feel like I have too many issues to deal with and I dont know where to start and I have to go see my psychologist on the 23rd of Jan and I really dont want to I just feel uncomfortable and strange. Sorry its so long I just need to vent, any advice, suggestions or opinions are welcome