Loneliness and Grief

I wasn’t sure where to post as having problems understanding different methods.

I am really lonely and grieving today. Last August my husband was in Hospital for the last time before coming home to Palliative Care. I have good days but not today. I had trouble getting out of bed and will soon go back. I had all of my blinds closed by 2 o’clock today. I am missing my husband terribly today. I have PTSD from severe childhood trauma. We loved each other and he knew my past. Something I have had to keep to myself mainly although some wonderful people do know. At 73 it is not something that people talked about. No convictions or compensation not that it bothers me a lot except financially, emotionally, spiritually it has taken a lot from me. I worked until retirement. I have had depression all of my life. I have had great counselling but as the book says The Body Keeps The Score. I have had illnesses probably due to my overall health. Sarcoma, melanoma and lung cancer. I thank you for allowing me to post. I may have repeated past posts. It’s todays bad day.