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Thankyou @Glisten ❤️

@MissGremlin I’ve always wanted to do what you are doing.

After 13 years with the narcipath, I didn’t know who I was.

I’m only just starting to get to know me now.

Oh I wrote them somewhere else @Jynx

Again here words are -

Flourishing

Thriving

Autonomy

Evolving

Deepening

Integration

Personal growth

Becoming whole

Cool @Glisten

Yep, very insightful. You have grown softer.

@Glisten I still don't know who I am but the fact that other people see these qualities in me I want to be able to believe it. Even hearing them from others i struggle to even process it, like it's so hard to see anything within myself other than anger, frustration and hatred and that's all directed at myself. I can't even explain how much I loathe myself and it's something I know i need to change in order for my recovery to even begin.

I'm hoping that by putting a list up and reading them to myself daily that it'll start to sink in. I'm not what these people have told me for all these years, I'm worthy and I matter and I deserve to feel happiness. I deserve to be here even when I'm having a hard time, it doesn't make me any less worthy of kindness and compassion.

Sending you hugs sweet, you are amazing and a beautiful person ❤️

Does @MissGremlin know the email ? out if you need any support you can always

team@saneforums.org

Thanks @PeppyPatti, I do know it 😊.

@MissGremlin you did NOTHING WRONG.

This is ALL on them. Don’t take it away from them. Hand it back.

Hand back all the hate, self loathing, anger and fear. None of it was yours.

They gave it to you.

Sweetheart. @MissGremlin

@Glisten oh I wish it was that easy. I hate that everything that's happened to me has made me into what I am today. I don't want to be like this, I want to be different but I'm not quite sure what that even is yet.

I hate that their words have had such an impact on me, they still hurt me, they still rule my life, they still make me who I am today.

Who can I be, can I ever be happy, can I be loved, can I be free of fear, can I learn to love myself?

So many questions, so much uncertainty, so much pain to try and get through.

Baby steps, I can do this, I think!.