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I write I called Mum yesterday.

I needed confirmation on a part of my wedding she had verbally told Mr Rocker about. I spoke to my psychotherapist. I had all this support behind me and ......I still feel apart. I'm trying to pick up the pieces this morning.

All this b.... Work and I still need to have no contact.

@PeppyPatti

I am so sorry that you are struggling to get along with your Mum or that you are falling apart after every contact. Preparing for a wedding is stressful enough without that on your plate. I hope things get better for you x

@TABI did my Cert IV - TAA 15(?) years ago. It's such a pity your trainer is making the course so needlessly more unenjoyable and difficult for you. I really enjoyed it and took a lot from it. Where I worked at the time paid for it so that was a huge bonus. Try not to let it take away from the achievement. I guess in itself, it's a very good lesson on what not to be like as a trainer.

Thank you @MJG017 ! They are good suggestions.

How have you been?

Thanks @MJG017

He was good most of course. Course design is very uneven. Months of assignments to do in last 2weeks haha

Should be other way round. Workload had dropped last 4-6 wks.

Hi @PeppyPatti. I'm sorry your mum is still making things so difficult for you. Try to focus on your wedding and good things right now. Try not to let her ruin this very happy time for you.

@PeppyPatti , I'm so sorry to hear things are hard with your mum. Coming to the realisation that the people we looked up to or wanted to be loved by will never be is hard.

Does your therapist encourage you not to reach out to your mum? What things can you do instead to help you get through that need.

Thinking of you ❤️

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@TAB wrote:

Thanks @MJG017

He was good most of course. Course design is very uneven. Months of assignments to do in last 2weeks haha

Should be other way round. Workload had dropped last 4-6 wks.

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@TAB Oh, that's rough! We finished off with each of us having to do a 20 minute training session in front of the other students. So our last couple of weeks was preparing that and then a couple of days sitting through a bunch of random training sessions... relaxing once I had done mine. I remember someone did one on building a pizza oven.

Dearest @Oaktree @Healandlove @MJG017 @TAB @Glisten @Shaz51

Thankyou very much for your kudos. It is very important to me that you make me feel Im not being silly.

How can a very damaged lady still, after all these years still affect me? The only hope I have is to have no contact. I truly thought that I was ready to just speak to her about my wedding. But no hope.

And you know what? There are still worse stories out there. My story is not isolated. I am strong and standing here feeling strong. And the only hope for me is to no contact. She’s coming to my wedding. Curses. Mr Rocker will need to do all that.

It’s ridiculous.

@PeppyPatti You're definitely not being silly! Not by a long shot! Control what you can't control and let go of what you can't. If using that control means no contact, then so be it. You are the strong one, not her.