The Void

Hi @MarronButterFly I can hear how bleak things seem right now. When we're in a hard place it can feel impossible to remember a time when we felt better, or hard to imagine a time when we will.

Do you feel as though this is something that has intensified recently, or does it feel like it's always been this way?

@Ru-bee This void has been there since birth I’ve always had it it’s always been inside me lingering and growing and growing

Hey @MarronButterFly just been catching up on your post - I am sorry to hear that you're feeling so plagued by this experience. It honestly kind of reminds me of the way Irvin Yalom (my fav existential psychotherapist) spoke about the concept of existential isolation - the sense of being unable to truly know another person's inner world, and thus we are forever alone in our own minds. Here's an article about it if you wanna read a bit further into it.

It sounds like you have a strong narrative about being born this way, which makes it a lot tougher to untangle, and doesn't leave any room for growth and healing. I used to feel very similar, like there was this deep, sucking void where my heart should be. It can be very easy, when we get no relief, to feel like this is just how we are, how life is, and that there's no way that we can ever feel differently. But... well, we can. Just takes time, effort, and a good support system. Do you have a good, trusted therapist with whom you can explore these thoughts and self-concepts?

After being surrounded by family and friends for many decades, I now find my self with feelings of isolation, loneliness and fear. I wake with them and go to bed with them. When you are consumed by these overwhelming feelings, you feel there is no light at the end of the tunnel. The void in my heart is real, I don’t want to be told to get over it or it’ll get better with time, our feelings and emotions are real and we need to be able to share them with out fear of judgment or ridicule.

Glad I have found this platform and knowing others have similar feelings, I don’t feel like I’m losing my mind. I hear your struggle @MarronButterFly.

Wow @MarronButterFly

That's a horrible place to be in.

I was recently introduced to the 'void'.

Don't really know where to begin my reply with you.