BPD, Bipolar Type 2, ADHD and Alcohol “Abuse”

Hey @Macqua welcome to the forums, glad you found this space!

I can hear how much relief and understanding the recent diagnoses have brought you, and I'm also glad that your liver has recovered! It sounds like you've been working hard on your recovery, however the intense monitoring is obviously taking its toll. Sometimes when we feel like our sense of agency and control has been taken away, it can create feelings of resentment and a desire to reclaim said control. I wonder if the monitoring is having an impact on your mental health, and making it harder to stay sober?

If you think it could be helpful to chat to your parents about how you're feeling, then I say go for it! Perhaps you can include in your discussion stuff like, what recovery looks like for you, what helps you to feel supported, etc., and perhaps you can collaborate on a new approach, and go from there.

Hello @Macqua Welcome to the forums, I'm really glad you're here!

I just wanted to say well done on your sobriety and healing your liver, that's really awesome and no small feat! I suffered from fatty liver disease and managed to reverse mine too, livers are such fickle things.

You're not failing but I think what you say makes a lot of sense. Feeling over monitored and controlled by your parents I can imagine feels really suffocating at times and perhaps they might not understand how that can contribute to the problem sometimes rather than help, like by causing feelings of resentment and urges to rebel. I think talking to them about all this is a good idea.

I recommend sober living for anyone regardless of previous history or problems with alcohol, it's just a better way of being once you get the hang of it! Don't give up, if it were easy everyone would be sober but it is definitely worth it. You've already come so far in your recovery, you've got this 🤗