Destiny

Totally. I feel that one must have themselves 'sorted' first or they'd just end up dumping their issues on the other person. I really feel that a person must be content with themselves before they can reach out to others and really connect @Rockdog

That's my thinking.

In other words, marriage doesn't 'solve' things. You need to be ready when entering into it.

That is true @tyme.

She knew that I wasn’t ready. I am still not, but getting better slightly.

it my never happen, I don’t know if I will ever run into her again. Like you said though, be ready. I guess if it is meant to be then I will. It may not be, and that is driving me crazy.

I just hope so.

Hope you are well 😊

It's so amazing to see you hold onto that hope @Rockdog . This is the hope that will help you keep looking forward. As I read your post, I am astounded at your growth and the immense progress you have made to get to where you are now.

Good things are worth the wait.

Awww thank you @tyme.

i am trying, but sometimes if still gets really painful. To feel so close and then have things just end like that is hard. Sometimes I feel that maybe our destiny isn’t aligned the same. It is for me, but I don’t know about her. When we ran into each other she didn’t stop, but then I was freaked out as well so probably not time. I will hold on forever 🥲

Hi @tyme ,

You know I will wait forever because it was just too ppowerful. I really hope that you can still believe with me. It is weird because I now know I can go on by myself , yet I also can’t , if that makes sense. 😊

So so proud of you @Rockdog . Honestly, you should see my smile. You deserve to be able to love yourself and enjoy what you do no matter what you get or don't get.

I don't even know how to better express my sense of pride and your accomplishments to even get to this point. Although it feels like a long time, to me, it doesn't feel that long at all. And in the light of eternity? It's a speck of time!

Well done mate!

Awww thank you @tyme,

that really means a lot to me. You are a special person in my life, and your support means the world to me.

Do you really think I am growing. I feel like I am in a better place. I know we are meant to be together because I can feel it but can’t make rational sense of it. It may be an eternity thing. It was a calm feeling with someone I hadn’t experienced before. I am probably looking at it wrongly, it isn’t about me winning a prize, but connecting with someone special. You do think there is a chance she has the same feelings? Because I will wait for eternity, but just hope she shares the same dream, and the cold her wasn’t the real one 😊

Hey @tyme,

Hope you are well. I hope Ruby is being a good girl. I was just having a sad moment because I was thinking how much I love her, and that she most probably doesn’t care. I’m sure she doesn’t feel the same way, and I’m sure she doesn’t feel heartbroken every day of her life. I think something would have happened by now if I meant anything to her.

I do not believe she will live heart broken, but I believe she is not 'at rest' if you know what I mean. @Rockdog

Then again, when I mean 'heart broken', I'm referring to not eating, not sleeping, not living... and I ust don't think this is the case.

Rather, I feel there is a void.

I somehow feel there is a void within you too?

Hey @tyme,

thank you for saying that, that means a lot to me. I am not to the stage of not eating or anything, although I guess I was in a pretty bad way for a while. I am getting on with my wellbeing now but yes a void sums it up well. Let’s hope one day. Hope you are going well. 😊