LuckyStarCasual Contributor
FRAZZLED / DRS ARE BOOKED
Hi
Am new, i need to make a decision, and I isolate, have no counsellor (retired 02/16) so came here.
1. I just started a new med, which has side effects;
2. I have OCD, so i hate hospitals, only been in old ones; and
3. Feel like i'm stuck in a parallel universe in which my life is so out of control.
So, got out of a clinic Oct after 13 days, back hm, have been struggling since with SE of weight/fatigue, and nutrition due to OCD i.e. can only eat pkt/dry food.
I have two referrals for two clinics interstate, one called me yesterday to say they have a bed.
Because, want to leave here forever, would end up living in a caravan park (living environment dysfunctional).
Having thoughts of wanting to not be here almost daily, and too anxious to leave hm, so idk how can get a plane.
1. Problem is hospital, I was scared of my Doctor, agreed with whatever was said to me, discharged despite still not quite right.
So do I go back there, I can get appointments next week, and be treated like crap, by overworked temp staff, or drag myself to the hospital interstate, both of which am speaking to this morning about not eating the food, and being allowed to drink meal replacements drinks.
2. And if both hospitals are ok with not eating, do i go to one in a major city (where i have lived before but is expensive), or one a little bit further up w/heaps of hostels.
And in saying this, I may run into people i know, and I'm scared, but i got diagnosed with arthritis and one more month of winter would be it for me, although Ive been offered a course and to do it i need alot of money, but it's my dream, so can see why am so upset atm.
Tx 4 listening x