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Hey @Katz42 ,

Thank you for sharing. I'm glad you are able to reach out and share a little about yourself. I hear how lonely life can be sometimes despite how much one tries to engage.

I have to agree that we are all special in our own way. It's about finding what makes us, us, and running with it.

Please know we are here for you.

Hi @Katz42 and welcome.

Music cats and poetry... and aspiring to compassion and tolerance... all. resonate with me. And your perseverance. We h Ave to hope and trust the good outnumbers the bad.

There's threads here for sharing poetry.

Please know many of us are alone and lonely, and in that we have something to work on with each other's help.

Hi @Katz42

Hope this finds ye well, you mentioned that you feel lonely and some what friendless, well please note that you have now acquired an army of on-line friends. The forums are a great place to chat about whats going on in your life, the good, the bad and the mweh!!!

So chat away to your hearts content, what type of cat do ye have, me I have 2, both gingers brothers and 2 completely different personalities.

Tell us a bit more about yourself........Asgard

Hi @Katz42

Welcome to the forums. I'm happy to meet a fellow cat lover here. I could talk about them all day 😺

Your poetry sounds very interesting, I'd love to read it 🙂 Its amazing how having a creative outlet really taps into your subconscious and you can get out some of the things that you've been holding inside that in any other context would just stay with you.

I'm sorry to hear that you are lonely. I hope that the connection here is able to help with that in some way.

You mentioned that there's no joy in your life at the moment and that is something that you want to change... what are some of the things that bring you joy?

Warm regards

SkySeeker22

Hi @SkySeeker22. and everyone else who has mentioned my writing poetry. I hope to share some of my poetry on here sometime. As I think I said, my poetry is very confessional, in that it is brutally honest about the many traumas and how they've affected my mental health, in fact my whole life. Because I'm new here, and new to showing anybody my poetry, I feel quite vulnerable baring those deep and raw emotions, and my dark past. When I get to know people better, and hopefully feel better in myself, I should have the confidence to open that Pandora's box.

Joy in my life is 99.9% absent at the moment. No friends, no family, no partner. My housemate quite selfish and distant. My PTSD symptoms have been full on and I have felt too triggered, anxious, frightened and angry to cope with my support worker. I've had a respiratory virus, not covid, not influenza, and nothing more serious, but it has made me feel very unwell for a couple of months. I have only left the house a couple of times, both times to go to the doctor. I have severe cabin fever. When I say that I am lonely, I am. I am lonely for people to listen, understand and dare I wish it, care. My experience so far here on this forum has shown me that those sort of people exist and that it is not impossible that I will be heard and validated and liked.

Well I strayed from the topic there, meant that I have nobody to socialise with (not even phone, text, email, social media), too physically sick to go out places and do more interesting things, I'm poor as a church mouse so spending money to entertain myself isn't an option. Mostly though, my back and shoulder get unbearably painful very quickly doing most anything. I do like writing creative fiction. Sometimes it's for fun and sometimes it is venting. I considered using a dictaphone or similar, but the sound of my own voice just adds to all those self criticisms. I've tried typing with a keyboard at various heights etc, and adjusted the screen height experimenting with various levels. Tried standing at a standing desk. I know that I sound so negative about this, as though I am determined that nothing will help. Really though, I consider myself quite intelligent and a curious and lateral thinker, and I feel that I have thought of and tried every option. When given advice on this, appreciated as it is, unfortunately I had already been there, and done it.

I am actually feeling pretty sad about my life, my existence, and so furious at "the universal ruling deities" because I don't know what I have done to deserve 56 years of misery and trauma. So I am sorry this got a lot heavier than when I started typing. Goodnight all. I need distraction from my negative thoughts. I will do the dishes.

Heard, validated, liked... I hope and trust you'll find that here @Katz42 . I can't promise joy.

I'm sorry to hear you've been ill with the virus so long. That in itself would be debilitating and depressing.

So you have a housemate. I live alone and go weeks without personal interaction but have some online contacts. My cat is company but old and unwell.

I'll look forward to your poetry when you're ready to share some.

Your pain and frustration with trying to write comfortably are very understandable. I have pain limiting me at present and poor eyesight. Perhaps you could persevere with dictation if you could set up your hardware appropriately? Do you have a tablet? I hear you've exhausted most possibilities with your computer and keyboard.

I'm missing my daily walks. Can you escape the four walls for sunshine and fresh air or is it too much with your illness and PTSD?

Hint: people will be sent a notification and recognise you're replying to them if you type their username prefixed by @. Typing @ will actually give you a popup selection of names to choose from, but you can add more freehand.