Struggling with anxiety

Hi. I have been struggling with anxiety the last couple of weeks. I first experienced anxiety about six years ago. My doctor has put me on medication and I have seen psychologists in the past. I don't find the psychology sessions very helpful. They are very expensive which only increases my anxiety. In the past I have tried tapering off the medication with my doctor's guidance twice, but both times I relapsed and had to go back on the medication. I am trying to reduced my medication again with my doctor. It has been afew weeks at a slightly lower dose and my anxiety is flooding back. I hate this feeling and feel like it is a constant roller-coaster. I worry that I might never be able to come off the medication. I don't know if I am just having withdrawal symptoms or if I am relapsing. I worry what my life with anxiety will be like later in life, especially during retirement. Anxiety feels so lonely. All I want is to be able to speak to other people who are going through the same thing. I try to avoid talking to my friends about it because I don't want to burden them or trigger them. It can be so overwhelming. I wish there was some type of drop in centre were you can go anytime to speak to other people. There are alot of support services out there but yet it still feels the the health care system for mental health is broken and it feels so hard to find something that works/helps.