So what else can hapen!

My husband sudenly took sick on Tuesday. I had to get an ambulance for him. He has two large blood clots in each lung and several more behind his knee. He has spent four days in coranary care. Thankfully they have found the cause, and his treatment is going well. The specialist told him he is lucky to be alive. This is the third time in fifteen years it has hapened. Its spontainious and due to a gene problem. Ok so he was due to come home today but was experiencing severe pain behind his ear. Its been going on since he was admitted but they were ignoring him untill today. Seems he has shingles! So they started him on medication for that today. You know what the say the sqeeking gate gets oiled. He had to keep on at them about his symptoms. Well ive been going in every day and spending at least two hours with him every day. I feel absolutely drained and worn out.i dont know if im over reacting, but im terefied he is going to drop dead on me. I know with the medication he should be ok. With the added complications of being diabetic and the damage to his heart it is leaving me feeling very wary. On top of this things have come to a head with my son and his x fifty odd phone calls to him a day plus text messages to him , myself, facebook. His solicitor has given her a written warning it has to stop or the police will be involved for an avo. He is unable to see his children at the moment as she wont agree to what visitation he wants. The solicitor said its the worsed case she's seen. He goes to mediation on Monday so hopefully some good will come of it. Im not holding my breath on that one. Needless to say i feel very stressed. Ive kind of gone into auto pilot. All this stuff is bubbling away deep down. I always seem to cope in the crisis, but crash when everything settles.I feel like my needs dont matter right now. Somehow im invisible. Am i being selfish? Sorry for such a long post.