Hi @john74
I am sorry to read that you are going through such a tough time. You are not alone in how you are feeling. I know I have felt more lonely living with an ex-partner than I have living on my own.
Its so hard to have a fresh start too with the current housing crisis.
I can relate to your feelings of wanting to end it all, but please remember that this awful time is temporary and it wont always be this hard. So far, you have survived all of your worst days and that is something you should be proud of.
Try to focus on taking care of yourself and doing things that you enjoy. Treat yourself like you would if a friend or family member was feeling down. Be kind to yourself, You are going through a difficult time, it is completely understandable why you would be feeling like you do.
I hope things get better soon. 🙂