How does my disabilities have an impact on my mental health?

Hello all,

I am hearing impaired and have autism spectrum disorder. I perceive the world in a negative way and tend to have all-or-nothing thinking patterns. My counsellor is currently assisting me in addressing various challenges, such as improving my self-worth and self-acceptance, while also guiding me towards personal growth.

I struggle with interacting in social settings, including difficulties starting and maintaining conversations, as well as dealing with problems such as conflicts.I became depressed and found myself feeling angry towards people without disabilities because I struggled to accept myself and my self-worth was quite low in the past. With the help and guidance of my counsellor, I began to take pride in who I am, and my anger gradually diminished as I started to understand my disabilities and allowing me to move forward in life.

I am in the process of learning to get rid of negative judgments toward other people because I tend to get angry or frustrated with people whom I don't like, mainly due to their actions in which I find it annoying or provoking, even though they did not target me as I do take it too personally sometimes. This is mostly due to my ASD thinking brain, and I need to learn to change my perspectives in order to function well in the society while regulate my emotions appropriately.

I did feel that I was not being understood because of my ASD, and I get frustrated when someone tells me to change my thinking. My perspective of the world in the past has been seen as wrong, and my mind tends to live in a world of fantasy, such as imagining relationships without any conflict occurring. I am also working on learning and accepting the harsh reality of the world. My counsellor told me that I am not a disabled boy, but a young man with a disability. I need to be able to accept and deal with negative situations, such as coping with breakups, for example.

I am very pleased to have a counsellor who can assist and guide me through every challenge I face, helping me grow and become a mature young man.