Hi @Juliet2 , I am also new here and I relate to the sensation of being confused, having those around me , being unable or unwilling to be a compassionate support , be it just someone to talk to or to help in practical ways.
It sounds like you have a lot going on and I feel it is fair to say that most people, without having any known pre-existing conditions, would find what you have briefly touched on to be overwhelming, confronting and needing support.
I would prefer to have tangenable suggestions , perhaps someone on the forum will be able to provide that support.
however, I can relate, and I have been feeling lately as though a fog has lifted only to realise that my support network has vanished, and I am having to face the reality of very unpleasant consequences of effectively not being part of life .
our specifics are not the same however overcoming the confusion and moving from confused overwhelm to a space of clarity and action sends me into a tail spin.
I am taking each day as it comes, and seeking help and support and welcome any suggestions you find work for you .
You are not alone, even though it feels that way. Wishing you all the best