Not so happy....

It's my birthday in 3 days.

Its not a happy day, more like day of abuse. I have barely told anyone what he did last year.

Why should I celebrate being sexually assaulted.

My psychologist stared me down today and said forgive yourself.

.....

No was the word that flew out of my mouth before she even finished.

I can't

I just can't.

I let him.

It's my fault.

[TW: Sexual Assault]

I was so stupid.

Fck you Red

And making it worse is the fact my mum is here. She said something about that person who did it yesterday. I tell her or she will just say I told you so. Mum isn't thr nicest person. It's hard. Faking smiles and pretending I wanted to see her.