Hey there @-abbey- @ANON12 @tyme @Appleblossom @Ruisseau 🌺
Thank you for sharing your stories 💜
Im another one of the lost I guess; never fitting in, never being a the centre of my own life, and always feeling like I'm on the other side of a big wall of glass, seeing life but not doing life.
I never really had friends, only people who could use my help when they needed it - it wasn't a two-way street.
My family is pretty much not in contact which is a mechanism of damage-control (we didn't have a nice start to life after being brought to Au as toddlers and then dispersed amongst defunct systems and other non-supportive places over the decades, never fitting in often because we were 'foreign').
On occasion I still feel that silent, awkward shame of being who I am, the way I am, and being acutely aware of how other people might view me in a negative light. But, after lots of years, and lots of hardship, I am a bit proud to say, I resist that judgement and reinforce how cool it is to be different, telling myself that I like the way I am, and I have been able to do lots of things beyond what I thought was ever possible - which isn't always what you'd expect, but things like giving back; something that people who know hardship really do very very well 💕
I think that there is also the contribution of the way society runs/is, that has a part to play in how isolated a person feels, too.. its not just 'all us' in terms of the dynamic that occurs which leads to feeling lost.
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