Mental Health & Relationship Breakdown

Thank you for your reply.

I feel like I really need some professional help.

Im coming off medications and started new ones 10 days or so ago. I feel quite physically sick, and the sleeping meds I’ve been given gave me nightmares so mentally I’m feeling pretty ordinary.

I’m waiting on a hospital admission. I have very little hope for the future. I have great difficulty self soothing despite trying. My intrusive thoughts are so constant and I’m exhausted. I do hope hospital might help but the more hospitalisations I have the more I feel like giving up because they’re often traumatising in themselves.

I’m feeling very stuck.

@illuminate

Welcome to the SANE Forums and well done on making your first post.

It sounds like you are dealing with a lot at the moment. I appreciate the courage and strength it would have taken for you to write this. I hope that knowing that there are people on the forums that read your posts and respond will help you feeling less alone and isolated.

You mentioned that the relationship wasn't healthy. It takes a lot of reflection and self-awareness to recognise that when you were so involved and committed.

Similar to what @PizzaMondo mentioned - can you ask yourself what is something healthy that you can do for yourself right now that your body and/or mind would thank you for?

Warm regards

SkySeeker22

Hi,

It sounds like you are facing some incredibly hard moments right now and have a lot of pain not only from the breakup, but from others who have let you down. It can feel very overwhelming but I hope you know you are not alone. I have learned the very hard way that no matter how deeply I love and share my heart, I can’t change those who won’t change themselves…thank you for sharing your feelings and experiences. You matter- and are worth loving and to be cherished and accepted for the unique and valuable person that you are. A person once said to me when I was in an overwhelming dark place that “there is a crack in everything… that’s how the light gets in.” I had to sit with the pain and practice radical acceptance that I did my very best and that was always good enough. I hope today you can know that you are and always have been enough and that you truly matter. There is only one of you in this universe and you deserve to be loved and to belong. Learning to love myself was and still is the hardest journey I have had to take after my marriage of ten years fell apart. Moving forward for me meant taking the time to let go, and learn to love me. Because we are good enough, and we are worth that time and love. Thinking of you in this time.