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lol @Former-Member love the pic!!

Hi @Former-Member Wow, i'm very impressed, building your own computers!

i'm just getting by... kids go back to their dads on tuesday and starting to stress about that thouugh i know it will be ok because he's taking them to his parents for the week. but just find it so hard to be alone. but doing all the smiling and happy face for them.

Hi @Former-Member

lj

@Former-Member You made me laugh about keeping fit from running and avoiding, I think I must be a champion marathon runner 😉. You'll be ok at work, just take it slowly and believe in yourself (yep easy said hard to do I know).

Hopefully the appointment with your psch goes ok. Are you going to try the psychodynamic therapy? I'm pretty sure I saw you post that somewhere, please correct me if I'm wrong?

I'm about to have an interesting, read stressful, appointment with my therapist tomorrow. She triggered me hugely on Friday but I think I have to face some things that seem huge to me.

Believe in myself.... I certainly will try. I think a primary failure on this one is the main reason why I ended up in hospital.
Yeah, I'll do the therapy. Part of me thinks it looks good and I have hope that it will actually help. Part of me is terrified. Part of me is deeply ashamed that I would need such intense therapy. But it's so reassuring knowing that sane friends have and are going through similar things.
Therapy always seems scary, but in my (limited) experience it's never as bad as you fear. Sending you hugs and support for tomorrow.

Hi @Former-Member, how is your night going?

Its not too hard to build a computer @Former-Member, it's a bit like lego really.

I'm glad you feel more confident about your kids going this time but I know you'll miss them. I've been putting on the brave smiley face for my kids too although tonight I told one of them how unwell I'd been. Its a bit easier when they are 20. I had to tell him though as there were some things that involved him and important decisions for him.

I know you've been as low as I have lately, you have much more grace and dignity than me though. I hope you feel a bit of peace soon though, you need something to fall into place to breathe a bit. Have you thought about taking sleeping meds when the kids are away this time just to sleep for a bit especially while you don't have to work. I was a bit naughty last night and self-medicated but I slept like a log for 14 hours. I think I feel a bit better for it. I'll pay for it tomorrow because I should be asleep now.

Hi @Former-Member and @Former-Member

You have a good outlook on starting therapy bec. I've usually found the same that my fears are worse than the actuality but... has been a few not so good times too.

lol @Former-Member I'm no good at lego either... I couldnt even finish one of my sons christmas presents sigh!

I asked my support worker about getting a prescription for something that i hate... but know it works for me form psychiatrist on thursday but didnt hear back from her yet. she's coming to help me with handover of the kids to their dad on tuesday so maybe shell have heard from him then.. but by the time a script gets out here itll be too late anyway probably... as in the kids will be home and then son has surgery and then we'll be back at school/work.

yeah, i tried to go to bed early.. was drifting off when one of he kids woke up and came in and now im just too anxious to sleep again. will try again soon though.

I really hope you get that script so you can use it @Former-Member, you'll feel like a new woman.

I'm about to head off to bed too.

Howdy @Faith-and-Hope. I see you there 😄

Thanks @Former-Member I hope you sleep soundly i'm going to try again too,

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

Night all

lj