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Yes @Former-Member hate can steal your soul. Your thoughts may be clearer than you realize, . . . you can see what's happening. Maybe that can help you guide it.

see you soon @Former-Member... and thankyou

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@Former-Member the problem is... I don't know where to guide it... it's kind of rudderless atm ... so its like an outboard motor thats running the boat in endless circles 🙂 But I'll figure it out.. somehow... not sure how yet! How are you travelling today?

The destination isn't always the most important thing. Your guiding it, maybe being dizzy might be better 🙂

I'm doing Ok today, I have to go into town - I mightn't like it, but my addiction to nicotine demands it 😄

lol @Former-Member I'm not sure which is worse, me being dizzy or you being lead by your addiction 😄 Just made me chuckle the way you worded it. 😉

Quickly popping by while little fish are happily eating afternoon tea - @Former-Member re the six month thing - you say 'what if things are the same'. I thought the same and then worse, like what if I am worse off. I guess the flip side is what if they're better than you expect? And also, what do you want to be reminding yourself to do in six months? I went around it that way.

Logging out, kick me out if you see me around before 7pm please?!

You know what @Former-Member I think it's my natural tendency to live in the moment. I believe if I take care of the now, the future will take care of itself. I think the process of the 6 months thing kind of places an expectation I don't want placed.

I know that probably sounds confusing and retarded, but I really do put it down to my hard wired proclivity to make the best decision in the now and trust that will pay off in the future. It's how I've always lived, EXCEPT in my trauma state, because I was unable to think at all let alone clearly and in the now.

Feel free to offer you thoughts I'm totally open to discussion on it 🙂

@Former-Member sometimes the numb is a safeguard, sometimes while that safeguard is up we process subconsciously... then the tears are our outlet. I don't know what is bothering you, but I hope that is the case this time for you. Feel better. 🎀

Tooky