Soul sister

Hello @Former-Member xx

sending you hugs my friend

sorry I did not reply earier as I lost the internet and i missed everyone here in that time xx

the specialist said i have now borderline diabetes and kidney disease stage 4

sounds like you have an infection some where as your slowen glands are trying to fight the infection xx

@Zoe7

How are you? - hope you are feeling a bit better from this morning

I had my friends memorial service this morning- it was a beautiful tribute to a beautful girl

On the way home I stopped in to see my GP and I've had a blood test and will have ultrasound tomorrow- he thinks its nothing serious- I will know by Thursday afternoon when all the test results are in.

Hi @Former-Member

Glad the tribute was meaningful.

Good Luck with medical issues ladies.

@Former-Member

Glad the memorial service was a beautiful tribute and your doctor thinks it's nothing to worry about. That must relieve some of the worry!

I'm feeling ok -have a lot to think about and decide and not sure what to so. I know I've got time but the more time it takes to make a decision the more I'm going to have to think about it - either way it's not a decision I want to make!

@Zoe7

I will be more at ease when I have the ultasound and blood test just to confirm its nothing.

Do you mind me asking what decision you need to make?

I read that you are teaching- good for you- what grades do you teach- did you do a specific major in your teaching degree?

@Former-Member Not sure how much disclosure is too much but it does relate to laying LOTS of charges.

This year, until I got sick at the beginning of September, I had a grade 4/5 for 4 days and taught Art for all grades Prep-Grade 6 on the other day.

Next year - if I can go back I'll have a 3/4 every day. We had to cut art to fit in Health - that really sucks. the kids really love Art but it isn't mandatory and Health is next year.

I actually majored in High School English and SOSE in my teaching degree but prior to that I did an Arts degree with a double major in Sociology then a Graduate Diploma of Social Research.

I didn't start teaching until I was 30 - did heaps of other things beforehand - then travelled, then came back and did teaching.

@Zoe7

Sorry if you didn't want to talk about it- I thought it might help.

I studied education at uni but I dropped out in my last placement- I feel bad even now thinking about it but I did end up with my education studies degree. My major was human movement & health.

I am not very artistic- I wish I had your talent.

After my education degree, I completed public health degree(2012). After my public health degree is when I became unwell with severe depression and I am still not well- it has taken a while for me to get where I am now.

@Former-Member

I really would love to talk about it -especially with you - but I'm not sure what I can say here - may be inappropriate for the forum - and cause some issues/triggers for others. How far can I discuss - you've been here longer - what can I say?

@Zoe7

I've not read the community guidelines for a while- I think its okay for you to share stories and what you have experienced and things like that etc. I think if you write anything that is inappropriate- I know when I have used a phrase - it has came up has (Correct the highlighted errors and try again). It has prevented me from posting and I had to change the word that was prohibited. I know they are pretty strict about personal information in terms of your own privacy- and you are not meant to discuss ie your location, share your personal name etc You can't talk about medication etc. In saying that I have mention I am from Queensland and from the Nth End of the Gold Coast- that is fine to do that but nothing specific.

When sharing on here just write what you are comfortable sharing.

What are you doing tomorrow?

@Former-Member

I need to decide whether the benefits outway the anguish of going through a legal battle of an incident that nearly resulted in me not being here anymore (by someone else). Does that make sense? The physical and mental violence keeps playing over and over in my head (and body) and after what the psychologist said yesterday what I have tried to deny for years became very real. Having real trouble coping with the enormity of it all and deciding what is best for me to get through it. Don't want to continue living this way but not sure I can live with the consequences (in terms of family and others knowing) if I went ahead with prosecution. Never every considered this course of action - maybe because I didn't want to think about it - but now it fills my head and I feel like I'm stuck between a rockand a hard place with no way out and nowhere to go. Does that make any sense?