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trying to hold on

-Rayne-Senior Contributor17 Dec 2016, 4:39 pm AEDT

trying to hold on

staying now with the parents. not doing so well. i don't know what day it is now but it seems like many days since we were grounded, everything is spacey and weird with memories zooming around and overwhelming many times. we're trying to do the things that keep us safe and centred at home but everything is different here. so many triggers. no place is safe. i'm afraid of getting lost in the big dark tunnel which is coming. i keep running from it and then im lost in the places and there is nowhere safe and nowhere to go except the dark place. i dont know what's real and it's just hard. why did we come here?

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-Rayne-Senior Contributor13 Jan 2017, 7:27 pm AEDT

Re: trying to hold on

it's hard when you cant work out what's present and past and real or imaginary and yourself or other, good bad, real not, true false, feeling numb, dead alive.

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-Rayne-Senior Contributor16 Jan 2017, 8:26 pm AEDT

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we're going to hospital tomorrow. staying with friend tonight which wwe negotiated with old psychologist and new person she's referrred us to. they say it's not safe for us to be alone now. i don't really know why. i feel okay, a little more spacey than usual but okay. i trust old psych though so off to tthat place we hate ttomorrow

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Unknown userMember16 Jan 2017, 10:04 pm AEDT

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Hey @-Rayne- Good luck with hospital. It's good you have a psychologist you trust and that they have got your back. Really glad they are making sure your safe. You've done an awesome job to get through Christmas, now it's time to rest up and pull together for a bit. Take care, sending hugs 💜🤗

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Unknown userMember16 Jan 2017, 10:36 pm AEDT

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I actually admire you Briar for your strength,and for you knowing you need to go into hospital,as I keep fighting it ,and put up with bouts of depression and distress like today.Its good you have a good psychologist with a duty of care.Just go in and rest up like Teej advised.You know when you need to go.

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