Hi @Former-Member
My understanding is that our thoughts are just that .. we are not our thoughts .. and thoughts do not cross lines .. in that it is behaviour that counts in life, not merely thoughts, but if we have to suffer with intrusive unwelcome unsettling thoughts, its best to have someone to discuss them with.
My GP scoffed that one of my old psychologists .. wasnt doing her job .. when I said that the psychologist had put up many blocks about areas that she would not discuss .. it was really helpful for me to know that was the professional opinion .. as I had felt confused and unsupported by the psychologist.
Find some one with whom you can properly and effectively discuss your thoughts.