Hey @Mina1 welcome to the forums! Not a 'live' chat, but certainly a chatty space.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I have no words that could make things better, I can only send some hugs and tell you that you're not alone. Many members here have experienced significant loss and bereavement, and if you type 'grief' into the search bar at the top of the page you will find various posts from members. Could help to read them, might give you some ideas on coping.
There's also Griefline, and you can always get in touch with SANE's support line too if you ever need someone to chat to. They're available Mon-Fri, 10am-8pm on 1800 187 263.
Let us know if you have any questions or if there's anything we can do to support you. Here beside you in the storm 💜