Poem - "Let Me Go"

Let Me Go...

You don't know me
But I know you
I am nothing
I am not here
But you are
You can’t see me
But I can see you
You can’t see my misery or my agony

You see colours
You laugh
You taste
I don't
No, actually I do
I see misery, torture, black, black and more black
I taste sour and bitter
I do laugh, but only to hide my tears

You recall good memories
You plan your future
I don’t remember my past
And I don’t want any future
Both ends are black
Both are sealed
I am squeezed in-between
This is my life
Always in-between
Between misery and agony
Between black and black
Between death and death
Between no-where and no-where
Is that life?

I am not here
Or there
I don't exist
Or I wish I didn’t
Who is enjoying my misery?
Why don't you let me go?
You like it here, I don't
I really tried to stay

I wanted to be like you
And you tried to help me be you
I failed, and so did you
Please, let me go...

I won’t tell them what you did to me
I don't, actually, remember anything
I can only see black, black, and more black
Please, let me go...