MatttCasual Contributor
Sciatica is ravaging my life
This is the second time I am starting a discussion. I'm so depressed. I live in chronic pain. I have had MRIs. I have seen so many F..ING physios and chiros. I had had all the F..ING reviews. I am currently on a public waiting list. I can't hold down a job due to pain. I went to centrelink today, because I need help, and very much so got the wrong person. They did not listen. I was moved on so they could move on the next person. I spent my whole day trying to go through the online process of appling for payments, but wth my bullshit internet and the amount of jobs I have had, and then had to quit due to pain, and now need to know EVERY F..ING DETAIL ABOUT in order to be approved for payments.. This is fucked. This is so fucked. I'm an intelligent guy, and my life is going straight down the drain. I will persist with centrelink. I have another doctors appointment that I can't afford in a few days in order to get an official centrelink doctors certificate. I don't know if I can deal with this. My life is stressful enough. I never sleep, laying in bed triggers too much pain. Everyhting triggers pain. This system is killing me. I will die before I get any real help. I'm sick of being in pain. I'm drinking myself to death. I need weed. Weed actually helps. BUT IT'S F..ING ILLEGAL AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GET IT! fuck this life. fuck everything. I keep working, then my money goes to medical bills. This is no life. This is no way forward. Where will I be in 10 years. Feeding the worms seems like the best option. At least then I will be contributing to the world.
Fuck it. Fuck everything.