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Christmas blues
Hello everyone,
I thought I would start a new thread for those who, like me, are finding this time of year difficult because of loss/grief. Whom are struggling or feeling isolated, depressed, anxious and alone at this time of year.
I have lost many loved ones - my three eldest children/siblings through estrangement, and through death my entire family. I cannot believe how this time of year effects me. I thought after all these years I would be over it. Indeed I am stronger and cope better but it never fails to bring on a depressive episode and invokes in me severe trauma and anxiety. No matter what I do.
They say some things we never entirely get over - we just learn to carry it and move on. And this I am finding is true.
I woke up a few days ago not feeling right. Feeling nervous, teary, depressed and angry. Wanting to hide away. I became concerned wondering "what is happening to me" which I feel I have not much control over. This of recently is very out of character for me.
I have been to hell and back this year but coped very well considering (had moments but survived well). But this time of year is bringing me near undone. And it's way down in the subconscious as at first I could not work out what was wrong - what was going on. How could I have survived this year and then when things settle come undone?. It's the time of the year, I worked out, somewhat disappointed that It still effects me this way. This time of year when families get together and all the pain, loss and memories come flooding back to haunt.
If anyone has experienced this or is feeling like this - depressed, isolated and lonely (whether truly alone or in company) in the Christmas period please don't hesitate to post and share your story, how you are feeling and reach out for support. We can help each other. I do feel so alone in it at times. Warm regards
