Hey @WolfSpirit,
Welcome to the Forums and thank you for sharing your thoughts with the community!
It sounds like you are struggling with loneliness in your life and that sounds really tough. You are demonstrating your resilience and strength being open about it here with your peers. It can be a common thing for us as we work through our mental health recovery to be isolated and lonely. I can relate as I was myself for a very long while and lost everyone when I got my diagnosis of schizophrenia back in 2016.
Have you heard of Meetup? It's great place where you can socialise and meet people who are also looking for connection. It was where I start socialising and learned to mix with other people and how I want to show up to the world.
Also, here is a previous post that lists some great places on the Forums to connect with others: Looking for a space to connect with others? Find a... - SANE Forums
And use the @symol to and the username of someone you want to tag, and it will email them to let them know!
Take care
RiverSeal