My head a bit of a mess.

My brain feels fuzzy and confused, and my emotions are all over the place, sometimes I feel like, I want to die, to give up, I had this group thing and I half jokingly said I wanted to die and then this kid piped up and said it not that I want to die, it's just I want to shut down and something else and that made me feel weird and he kept going on and on, I just wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out,

My brains a puzzle with missing pieces and I feel like puking and hiding, but also I want to self-harm to feel something, my anxiety is full on hitting Like a train and I don't know what to do.

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