PTSD and yet another xmas post

This is just such a messed up time of year. We’re doing all the right things to keep safety and control – avoiding shopping centres and other places with xmas stuff, meditating, eating clean, exercising, sticking to routine, journaling, listening to each other, being observant etc. etc. Yesterday we skipped work xmas party #2. There are still another two to come though. We’ve also started working from home as much as we can to avoid talk about xmas but it’s impossible to avoid it altogether. Mostly it's because of the PTSD that we need to stay home. We can’t function for more than an hour at a time and it takes so many internal resources to do that, that we’re wasted for the rest of the day.

All in all it’s been managed though so far. If it was just to continue at this level, it would be difficult but we’d manage. We’d get through it. The problem is that that’s not what’s going to happen. Our wonderful kids arrive on the 12th to help us move house and then on 14th we all go interstate for an unknown period of time with the extended family. I am trying to reassure myself that this will be okay too but I’m really failing at it. I can’t think of a single reason to think why it will be safe there.

And tbh I'm worried that the reason we spent last xmas in hospital was the same as what's confronting us this year.