Tabaluga's

Porridge sounds good @TAB

Wish I could eat it. Gives me pains in the belly. 😩

I have to be careful awhat I say on here. Police were sent here previously. Because of something I said. When I tried to reach out on here, my messages were deleted. Ugh 😑 can't really trust anyone. I wonder if my message will be deleted lol. Not funny.

ok my guts seems okay with it, ended up having another colonoscopy recently they found things this time but took them out said okay @Former-Member yeah thats pretty full on re cops I guess they were worried

I am a failure in so many ways though, but thanks. People probably just judge and laugh at me and I hope that's doesn't happen on here and the Reach Out and Beyond Blue Forums either.

Yeah I don't know, I'm not smart enough and don't have the mental capacity, it was the same in high school, as much as I tried my best.

I hate myself so much inside and out. Not saying anything for attention and sympathy but it's all true. @TAB

Im sorry you feel that way @Former-Member what does your psych say about that ?

I dont know what to say to that.

Yes. I guess they were worried. Me too lol. Anyway. One of them was nice. Spoke to doctor briefly and was allowed home. Was quite traumatic.
I'll be careful about what I say from now on.
Embarrassing if the neighbours saw. I hope they were asleep. Never had that happen before.
Can't be honest anymore. Keep my mouth shut is the best.
Too traumatic. Wouldn't want to go through that again.

Thankfully D was asleep and I was home before she woke up. I did tell her about it though. Have had ambulance here a few times. Pretty scary times. I'm glad it's over. On the way forward again
That's good you had a colonoscopy. Although, not a nice experience. At least you've been tested.

i had that done years ago. Up all night. Not such fun, but necessary @TAB

sounds like a lot going on , at least things better now @Former-Member dont think embarrassment should come into it

yeah the clonoscopy think remember talking to you during prep last time, stuff had to drink wasnt as disgusting this time think. Am nearly due for bedtime here

I tell you what @TAB It doesn't pay to be to honest on here. Or on any lifeline service. The cops will turn up. It's pretty scary when you can't be honest.
Anyway. Enough said.
it's pretty :pile_of_poo: really. When you need help and only more trauma happens. Ugh 😑 I'll never forget.
onwards and upwards they say.

Still p##### about it all. But can't dwell on it. Life has enough traumas without police being involved. @TAB

It's fine, I understand. Sorry for venting, I hope I didn't upset you or others.

I can't remember if I've told him or not, I don't see him again until the 30th but I'll let the new GP know since I see her next week sometime. I'll tell my Psychiatrist when I see him because I have a lot to say and questions since this is the longest I've had to wait to see him.

I'm off to try and get some sleep anyway, sorry again for venting and being negative, I promise I am trying.

Take care all and sleep well. @TAB

oh well, older and wiser maybe @Former-Member or more experienced . Yes, enough said