Tabaluga's

@TAB s TAB are you still here?

sounds productive @GezzaP sorry so many other things going awry.

um dentist first thing this morning, home again, nap, shops , incl chemist and PO

got letter from defence (with password for usb with my records on it) opened big A4 padded envelope some time later and the usb was in there.

a lot of it just boring , mundane.

Then there's serious character assassinations and accusations

somthings dont even remember . odd looking at records of interviews from over 40 years ago.not sure why they let me in lol

there was also also record of failed application for RAAF before went to Army. not very flattering. well, cutting more like. needless to say they didnt take me

immature, lazy seem to be recurring themes and the bit about nearly getting discharged against my will lol some of it just illegible (all hand written)

Guess it was what I expected , doesnt mean didnt give me funny feeling in gut and a bit sad.

Hope psych appt goes okay.

yes .. @Bunniekins

@TAB hey tabby, you are a smart guy. Life is not easy. I had hard childhood. Worked hard to survive and escape a life of destruction. It is still hard. Ha.

hard to read some of it @Meowmy just , dumb and stupid

Thanks though. might be able to get something from them .not sure of angles , that will be fore advocate to decide

Psych appt fine she has increased the dose of one of my meds for a week when she will call again @TAB . Sorry about your army news. I’ll be ok if I can get a few proper nights’ sleep. But have lots to deal wth this week, with credit card being cancelled and having to change payment details. Will tackle tomorrow when am fresh in the morning. I’m just too tired now after a very long day. Trying to nap now before mechanic comes back with car. He said late afternoon so there’s time for a 30 minute nap. Hope you don’t feel too sad.

like I said, not as if didnt know what was in there, just pretty nasty the way it was written etc @GezzaP only doing it to have one last go at getting a few grand out of them, else would not have wanted to see it

Oh ok good luck with getting money @TAB .

I’m having a cold drink while waiting for my mechanic to bring car back. He said might be as late as 5.30. I’ll be hungry by then.

Has been an expensive week for me. Just saw the gas meter reader man go by window so will get that bill soon. Might have to take some money out of my emergency funds to cover the next week of outgoings before I get paid again. Some fortnights are just so expensive. Had a plumbing bill for $800. Thiught they ripped me off. Have made a complaint. Will get some money back from medicare though - soon I hope. Maybe tomorrow.

Didn’t manage to have a nap as I am overtired. Will start extra dose of meds tonight as per psych’s recommendation.

$800 for 3 leaking taps ? or was there something else @GezzaP I would have done it for free lol

@tyme hi tyme, hope you're keeping well. Thank you so much for your kind support and care. It's been a very hard day. Since the previous mentor money thing, I feel my entire world has changed. The full power of the childhood sexual abuse sits heavy. I feel I can no longer trust any one to support me in my vulnerable life as they will be like my previous mentor. Mum is driving me crazy. We have a plumber working through some gas leak in the house. She is yelling at him for not closing the door properly. She is yelling to call in the gas company to fix the leak free of charge. The childhood anger bursts in me. Years ago, I saw a documentary , a child of anxious school teachers was eventually made to be a schizophrenic and live on the road. I am sixty years old. My parents nearly destroyed me. It's still very hard.Thanks for reading. Kind regards, meowmy