Noone knows what I'm talking about

I have bipolar disorder and type 1 diabetes and cbt does not work. I have a document from a therapist who has bipolar who said it doesn't work for their bipolar. I can't find anyone who knows what to do. I've looked at the alternative therapies and they are not viable. I'm not a writer and I can't afford therapy. Talking doesn't help. Psychologists are actively mean to me.

I can't hold a job because I'm never allowed any leeway for something I can't control. I can't relate to a doctor who has bipolar since I didn't even finish high school because I couldn't handle it. I can't relate to anything I've read and I do t understand what I'm supposed to do. No one hears what I'm saying, I get harassed by random ppl every time I leave my home, and the bloke who happened to help make me ruins my food at any available opportunity. And no one believed me when I sat any of it.

Apparently, I'm so creative I thought all if this up all by myself.

I'm medicated and I'm still broken. What am I supposed to do?