Cant even get my Dads help

Ive been declined provision of services from almost every psychiatry firm online because my situation is too complex or they dont have a psychiatrist capable of dealing with me. I was sent back to community mental health for comprehensive case management and they declined as well. Im fighting them but as it stands, Im too much for anyone to help.

Home is hard, Mum favors my sister at my expense almost all the time. I had a bad day, Mum and I talked about something and I was told it was too much for her to continue. She wanted me to do what my sister had wanted regardless of how it made me feel. I eventually spoke to Dad and asked he speak to Mum. He asked me what I wanted. I wanted him to stand up for me, Im struggling and Mum is making it harder for me. I wanted that my well being was enough for him to help and protect me. He said he would do it later and not long later, my sister needed him to take her to hospital. As far as Im aware he still hasnt spoken to her.

It would appear that Mum doesnt care at all and even after pleading Im too much work for him. I mean they do have my sister to worry about and put their effort into.

I feel so worthless. Im really sick, like multiple issues, Im in lots of pain and discomfort, Im on massive amounts of pain relief. But the feeling that my parents dont care about me hurts the most. They rub it in with being their for my sister like they are.

Whats the point, I have no one. I cant afford to leave, my medical costs that are long term cost too much, even if I was at full wage again, I couldnt afford to leave home. Im stuck here, they clearly dont want me here. They have made it clear that they have their hands full dealing with my sisters situation. Im so trapt, its like I am in a tiny little cell and they have cattle prods toying with me. I need an out, I have one I keep going back to, but I need an out that lets me survive as well, I cant see one