Hate from others

Hi @Lisa925

Welcome to the forums, we are glad you're here. Sounds like you are being attacked by negativity and hate. Don't let them get to you, keep your chin up and express yourself safely. You matter and you are important and you are allowed to enjoy life. If things are bad you can contact us here for support tel:1800187263. We also have a fact sheet on PTSD... Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) (sane.org) that may have some useful information for you.

Hi @Lisa925 . Welcome to the forums!🙂

It's hard, isn't it? Being an outlier by nature. And IMHO, it completely destroys your ability to be yourself in any public setting, because your true nature offends people. So you end up just constantly lying in front of others, but then they don't like you because they eventually realize your lying and they have some sort of prejudice against liars.

So effectively you were screwed from square one, although it might have taken some time before that became clear.

If you have aspirations of making the world a better place - making the world a place where people are happy - this hopeless dynamic can be debilitating. How can you do anything to make people happier when they seem so goddamned determined to be miserable?

So, to answer your question, forgetting the animosity is more or less a moot point for me, because I'm still trapped right in the middle of it; it's not just a "bad memory", it's my currant reality.

I like to think that, if ever I were to end up in a good environment, forgetting the ugliness of the past would be relatively easy, since I would just bury myself into the goodness of the "here and now" and not give much thought to the past. But that's a theory I doubt I'll ever get to test.

Hey @Lisa925 Welcome

Yep, on Wednesday I got worn out by the 2 court ladies trying to wrap me into a hate session our local peppercorn tree. It was not hurting anyone, and they have gone on about it almost a dozen times. They go on about the roots, and I say yes, I know the roots go down deep, but thats not enough its gotta get hypey, so that I am "in it" with them. It i so boring. Next time, I will probably be curt about not joining their hate fest and cant they think of anything else to say.

Sometimes it is supposed to be best to walk away, but what if you have walked away enough. If its not dealt with, then it can follow you around.

idk?

Good post tho.