Back in ER

So I'm back in ER. I went to see my GP today about my cellulitis. I stopped IV antibiotics last Friday and today it's travelled further down my inner thigh on both sides. So I need to be back on IV antibiotics. Last time I did hospital at home but this time I'm not sure, they might actually admit me in hospital. I was in ER on Saturday as I was in lots of pain with my tongue, that turned out that the glossitis had made my tongue swell and therefore not fit in my mouth and it was rubbing against my teeth which has caused cuts, open wounds and abcess thing on my tongue. A week before I was sent in when I first got cellulitis

It's not what I needed to end up back in ER. Especially with the potential for an admission.

I spoke to Mum today and said about getting another car as we are down to one car. She won't allow it, I asked why and she eventually said that she was sick of spending money on that sorta stuff when it could go towards the house. To me that means she was sick of helping me eventhough I repay what I borrow. My sister can however steal $50k and still be helped and supported.

I gave them both another go but I just don't matter enough for either to show they really care.

Feeling seriously down. Mind is in dark place