Hi @Kyle, I hear you. I had some actual mail mail sitting waiting to be opened. I too was afraid, I think. Afraid that it would be one more thing to deal with. I just can't, I'm so done!
Anxiety is this untamable beast because logically we know there isn't anything that can hurt us but it paralyses us. And then we feel guilt and shame.
>How do I manage to do these very basic things this morning inspite of my crippling illness?
I dunno man, it's so damned hard. I think, and I know it's super hard to do, sometimes we have to ask for help. But then when I do that I feel so bad. It's all horrible and I really wish I had some answers for you.
But good on your for going to your appointments and I hope you get something out of them, despite the massive effort they are.