Anyone awake? Can’t switch off

hey there...

Sorry @Former-Member that no one was around last nite...

Can I tell you about a new thing I've been doing on restless nights?

Audio books. Sleep stories from YouTube. I used to listen to music, but it more often than not didn't help. But somebody telling a story?.. so far it's made a noticeable difference.

If you need to, would you like to talk about what was going on last night? 🙏

Hello @Kyle1, thank you so much for your thoughtful post. Audiobooks… I never considered that. I will try it…one day. I feel like weeping today…the sky is grey, the ground is sodden…Oh, but just now the sun poked out from behind the clouds! And now it’s gone…and I’m weary…

Sorry @Kyle1, have just shut down today…

it's an aweful way to be feeling @Former-Member

Do you get to see a counsellor? ...

I went to one yesterday. I just about used a whole box of tissues. I left the consultation, my pockets bulging with used tissues, as though I were a sack of grapefruit.!!

Needless to say, I didn't feel better.

The weariness and melancholy seem to lay bone deep, don't they...

We have grey skies here today, too.

I’m so sorry to hear you were not feeling the best yesterday @Kyle1. Pockets bulging like grapefruits… I can pass on a few of those to you, I was just looking out the front window at the grapefruit left to rot under the tree, all mushy from the rain. I must gather them all later. Rotten grapefruit…sorry, that doesn’t help you.

I cannot write even if I really wanted to. I have my son starting his home schooling in a minute, but he’s refused to budge from underneath his duvet, he suffers depression as well, my darling boy. And now I’m weeping.. dang it. I feel his pain. And it shatters me…

For today I have to contact the NDIS as I haven’t received my new plan yet, even though it expires in a week, I don’t have a support coordinator and I really need to have some more supports, I can’t organise this for myself, it’s so frustrating. And I need to find something to dump in the slow cooker for tea, I have my son’s counselling appointment today, we travel some distance to get there and am hoping to move them along re his NDIS support so he has access to a tutor among so many other things. And I have to write an annual report re his home schooling.

And I’m weary.

The rain just started up again. Heavy, falling relentlessly. Though it’s oddly comforting this time. I saw my counsellor yesterday too.

you've such a busy day @Former-Member

Appointment, pedagogy, dinner, driving in the rain...and youve not slept well.

Gosh

Please take care, huh? Take it as slow as you need to. You'll get it done. I've done a few home-schooling reports myself. I'm sorry I won't be able to help you with that.

But if you feel up to it, come back and let us know how you're going??

(I, too, am struggling to secure a support worker!)

Kind regards, @Former-Member

Travel safe

thank you @fluffylight

How are you feeling today?

Thank you for your support @fluffylight, thank you for the hugs! I will persevere through today at a steady pace…All things must pass.