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JlolSenior Contributor
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life that have had a big impact on me and others close to me. Yes, a lot of these have been influenced by my own poor mental health, but that does not absolve me of taking ownership of the consequences.
I just keep hurting myself and other people. Time and time again.
How can I live with myself knowing I've done all this bad stuff?
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hanamiSenior Contributor
Hi @Jlol
I feel that if you take ownership of the mistakes you've made and make a genuine effort not to make the same mistakes then people will know this and forgive you. We are always hardest on ourselves. I'm 54 and think about things I did so many years ago I wish I could change but I guess I've learned the past is the past. Life is too short to dwell on things that can't be changed. I prefer to focus on the now. I know that's easier said than done. It's taken me some time to reach this point. And I regret not getting there sooner. But what's done is done. We can only change, focus on what we can do now and moving forward.
Hanami
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NezumidoshiCasual Contributor
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tymeModerator
Hi @Nezumidoshi and @Jlol ,
It sounds like a very dark place to be in.
Sharing my own experiences, I used to have a lot of angry outbursts of intense rage. Over time, with treatment and support, I learnt to slow down these feelings, give myself some space between the emotion, so as not to react so ruthlessly in the moment.
It took a lot of training and required practice. It was about naming the emotion and working with it.
It is possible. Just hand in there. We are here to support you.
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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor
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