Fathers day and the feelings that entails

Father's Day, a day that used to be spent with Father although sadly not so miss him terribly Im not sure people fully understand the loss especially for daughters or anyone really ,it leaves a gap that simply cant be filled nor would I try to fill it ,This day every year brings emotion and reflection, he died a number of years ago and this year Ive really been feeling his absence yesterday I jumped in the car and drove of the anger and feelings of unfairness surrounding it The feelings are hard to describe about missing him its a kind of sadness that I cant put into to words and this year Ive chosen to be more private about my reflections of him, it also brings with it a sense of lonliness in fact yesterday at times I felt like a scared little girl who'd lost her way ,I miss him very much, I also feel a bit snubbed or outed by particular family members for not showing a sense of care towards myself and siblings and in saying that there are some who also truely understand our plight and I know where not the only ones missing a parent today wether thats their father or uncle or grandfather or close male mentor or friend theres many like us who have lost these special people in their lives ,but I also wont begrudge the people today who are so lucky to have their Fathers there that is if their the type of fathers that treat their family right and proper the way they should,so to anyone who still has their father my advice would be make as many memories ,phone calls and laughter with him as you can and shower him with hugs and appreciation, Today Ive chosen to listen to a few songs that remind me of him and quietly self reflect on memories ,I was going to go to his Gravesite today but that may be too much to do ,Ive already cried today and felt moody so think its best to maybe watch a movie and kind of get through today quietly , Im so thankfull for the family that does understand his absence and the impact overall that it has on us ,take care everyone ,just a quick line to say I am safe just emotional