Happy Weekend!

hi @Dimity

Yes, I have reached out to some church friends, but no one followed through...

I'm thinking it must be a season to focus on my children and I only. Yesterday I got on with being Dr dad and though one of my children is flu-y we had a nice homely afternoon and evening.

thank you @Appleblossom

Yes, I've never been gregarious or noticeably extroverted at any stage. So when I found a social scene (like church) where it was comfortable and easy to mingle among friends, I was happily surprised. And grateful.

Now I question if it was all just the novelty of newness at work?..

As for me, I've always felt like a lone Wolf type. Simultaneously longing for connection and warmth.

In my middle years now I hardly trust any of it.

Hey @Kyle1

It makes me sad that nobody has reached out to you 😞 Do you belong to a small group/life group? I have been meeting with mine for about 5 years and we have a group on Facebook messenger. I have had to be open about my struggles with MH and addiction recently and they have all been so supportive. I still don't know that many other people there, but I am hoping to. Maybe you need to find some new friends there or try another church? I believe that the right, supportive and carimg people are out there, it's just a matter of putting yourself out there Iike I did (easier said than done, I know!!).

Sending encouragement and blessings your way!

yes, I think you're right @MissA

Move along. Start again. And maybe bring Saint Francis with me: "seek to understand rather than be understood" ...

@Kyle1 All the best with whatever you decide to do 🙂

Thanks @MissA I go through periodic times of committed exercise. Need to give it a break sometimes, and then get back on me bike (metaphorical .. no longer riding.) However a friend from church is comiing over this afternoon to do flute for Seasons of Creation.

I have needed to rely on that St F quote to survive at all. @Kyle1 I am very Francissy. Priorities, be the Dad.

Tbh I have never had people reach out at church until recently. It seems to be about me showing up. As a child I was recipient of charity and somehow have tried to give back.

Yesterday I lead some singing and did Acknowledgment of Country for an event. One lady called me cuckoo ... she is very blunt and a bit rude ... I laughed and agreed that I was loopy... to smooth over the conversation in the community kitchen. However I am not always up for that kind of response. It was not offered with warmth or inclusion, and I may take her to task over it another time. She may be nervous as her husband is a retired minister and very active, but she need have no fear from me. He is 20 years older than me, and I am diligent about respecting relationships and been open and warm with her, to a string of "I am not impressed ..." yadayada ... quoting Torak real estate and all that social status BS that I am so over... I am starting to take the mickey out of ... I am no longer taking everything people say to me personally. I am not flirtatious or coquettish and do not like that style in women, and even hoped to be her friend. She is just a grumpy frump, but there are many times such attitudes damage people to the point of wanting to leave the planet. I had enough other people anchoring me in the event to ride it through. Buty stayed home this morning too.

it's a shame, isn't it @Appleblossom - to have to endure noxious temperaments..

I'm sure there are quips left, right and centre about how character building it's supposed to be, but a big fat rasperry to all of that! ...

It's been a glorious day to stay home, anyway.

God fearers bashing you seems a bit extreme.. kind of amusing and a wee bit annoying nobody put a finger on that quick as. Let me guess; Catholic? No,.. hang on.. it was Anglican.. because the ones Jesus talks about reading, but do not comprehend, exist there in volumes. They'll even try convince you they ain't catholic, while traversing the battlefields of suffering to scoup up the survivors. 😆 Not so different from any other predator.

Then again.. is always possible you're not being entirely honest. But hey, a yarn is an amusement in the making.. whether true or false!? 🤔

See what I did there? 😎

I could tell you of a grand many things.. that you would no doubt put aside in the too hard basket, knowing it is true. It is the basis of our accepted upbringing to deny what is clearly in front of our eyes and mind. Everything you have found to be acceptable, is unacceptable by logic, but it is a part of your access to feed every day.

So many state they're intelligent, impressing upon all humans around them that there is no other life in this universe, while avoiding the fact they have no idea of the extent of the universe, let alone their own existence.

You will also notice, nobody here is interested in fact, just a hug and clean support, that they're already aware of.. which is why the community guides etc step in.

The reality of your existence is already known, and sits quite pretty in your mind. I refuse to allow humans to remain in a pit they have created for themselves, but, it does not mean I will retire to my corner, again.

I will help where I can, but abide by the directions to watch when I must. For the most part, when I'm not saddened, you are really amusing.

Should I continue with sticking the finger at the different governments across all the lands on this planet that terrorise their people and claim some weird form of legality? Or should I keep it close.. like Australia?

Remember.. corruption does NOT exist.. it's just an awesome sounding word that some Greek bloke invented 2000 years ago to impress his little man. 🤣 And, when you sit in your hut, in your village, untouched by the reality of the real world, that, I remind you, you have allowed and created, it doesn't exist. Keep that close to mind and heart, while we study.

Julian Assange was hunted by the Americans (the greatest race on the planet, apparently) for simply advertising to the world that thier version of humanity practices targeting on women and children in the streets from Apache helicopters. So, apparently, exposing illegal and immoral behaviour that dictates to be under the guise of peace, is, illegal!? 😅 That's your world.

So.. what part, of any of this.. so little that I've actually said, makes you suppose you're going to make it to the stars? 🤨

It is true, I love you all.. because I know your potential. I know you're all capable of actually walking and supporting the line you claim to want, but, when are you going to shake the sh*t off and shine? Direct intervention is not the solution, even if you were religious or loved destruction n rebirth.. even if you're an athiest and/or believe death is the absolute end.. how does any of those beliefs excuse you from enabling and encouraging what you all know is pure logic, true and right? But, your purpose is to learn. And, no...

The only true annoyance I've ever had is knowing through pure sense, you're your own barrier.

My sadness is also my hope. A Lil sprinkle of knowledge that we can always start again, strengthens that hope. In the meantime,.. please,.. continue. 😎