Everything is very loud :(

I was told by a psychiatrist that i have BPD around three years ago. It was something i hadn’t even considered a possibility until it was brought to my attention; mostly because it felt like such a scary diagnosis and was not something i was ready to accept.

It’s been some time since then, and i still struggle with accepting how much having BPD impacts my life every single day.
My thoughts are so loud. They never stop or slow down. They are frantic and overwhelming. My thoughts often overlap, like listening to hundreds of radio stations all at once. Constant negative, paranoid and distraught voices consume my brain every second that i am conscious. It’s exhausting and I can’t make it stop. Does anyone have any advice? I am at a loss for how to cope with this. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest and screaming in my ears at every moment of every day.

I’m sorry to anyone else who resonates with this. Know that i understand you, and I am here for you.

much love, stay safe ❤️