Sounds n seems counter intuitive and slightly contradictory mate. You suggest being unaware of suicide attempts.. the experts apply electric shock.. then you state that your life has been saved, that you're assuming is accurate, but, at the cost of a memory you never had in the first place. 🤔
So... are you even sure you had electric shock so-called therapy, or is that an occurrence you was also informed of, without, you know, being absolutely sure!?
I have endured people insisting I have done, said and embarked in/on many journeys, but I can honestly state, as I have them, my timeline, recollection of events and unbroken ledger of activities quite strongly disproves such suggestions. But hey, perhaps I have been secretly frequenting similar experts and my livid memories are psyche implants!?
Or, I'm dead set bat s**t crazy and everything they've said is true. Logic then dictates, if that were indeed the case,.. my interpretation of 2+2=4 is false.. and the only plausible explanation is that I am the lead actor in "Jacobs Ladder".
Sure, I'm fine with supporting a societal structure that isolates, belittles and essentially abuses people that disagree with a destructive and doministic lifestyle that has barely evolved since painting on cave walls... used to set fire to intelligent women, murder genetic differences that are now accepted as the norm, disembowel pregnant women and attempt genocide in the name of an apparently loving and patient God,.. whilst, mind you, frowns on any other bypass of what is typically the majority's accepted way of breathing.
The Church has not changed their opinion. The majority are still murderous. The mental health professionals are still witch doctors. The only change is their adaptation to hide their desires and the threat of nuclear obliteration to force their shroud.
I'm also still trying to perfect the art of sarcasm...
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