I'm hurting

@Christheart !!!! SOOOOOO good to hear from you! I've missed seeing you around on the forums! I'm so glad to see you. However, I'm sorry to hear that you have had this stumble with your mental health.

You probably know now that tapering off meds has to be taken so slowly. I've been on the same meds for years, and each taper (even a few mgs), I make sure I'm steady (over years) before the next taper.

So although I'm still on meds, i'd prefer that over a life of hell.

I'm so sorry to hear it is hard for you right now. Please don't give up. You CAN do it.

We are here for you.

@tyme Thank you for the warm welcome, friend. It is comforting to have this community have my back.

I'm honestly fine with being on medication forever, if it means I can be lifted out of this pit. It's just a waiting game now I suppose, and seeing what the psychiatrist says.

Thank you for the encouragement, I am aiming to get through every day without crisis, for as long as I can. I have to be patient, and wait longer than the depression lasts. I hope I can be encouraging for others too ❤️

It's amazing how helpful being told 'don't give up, you can do it' is. We just need reminding sometimes.

Put it this way...you've been able to do it before, so you can do it again. It may be a bit harder, but let's just say you are more experienced at it lol.

At the same time, it sounds like you have things to look forward to such as having a partner, settling down, looking at properties.

I believe in you that you can do it.

@Christheart

It just feels like every time I have a major set back like this, I get a little weaker, and there's a little less fight in me. I have to find strength somehow.

I have to keep hope that a beautiful future is possible.

Thank you for the belief !!!

I believe that you can do it too @Christheart. It’s soo good to see you. I was only going through my thread the other day and was thinking of you and wandering how you were going.

Im sorry that things have had a slip for you. It sounds like you have a few good things that have been happening in your life though.

@Captain24 That is so nice... Thank you for thinking of me. How have you been??

Yes, there are great things in my life... It is terrible to want to die, when you have so much to live for. Stupid brain. I am hoping for a recovery. Though when in the pit it unfortunately feels like recovery is impossible and evasive. But logically, it's not really impossible... Must keep hope even though it's very hard.

I’ve had plenty of ups and downs. @Christheart. Currently heading down again and trying to stop it.

I get that life can look great in the outside but not be in the inside. I’m sorry about the SI. It’s really hard to have to fight it all the time. It’s a struggle.

It must be hard knowing that you were in remission. It’s difficult to see the light when you are in the depths of darkness. I hope for you that you can find the light soon.

@Captain24 Knowing your on the way down is horrible, especially if you've gone through a period of good health. It's very frustrating:-(

I hope so too. Thank you for the encouragement. Recovery has to be possible again!!