Could use some help with coping

Thank you for your kindness.

I'm thinking I will probably check in.on here more often especially at night when I am struggling.

Just knowing I am not alone is nice.

I start psychologist sessions this week.

Thank you.

Hi @Kate82

I'm really sorry that you're experiencing all of that. I hope I can offer a bit of support at least for the sleeping issues, because I had and still have them.

I completely understand it would be hard to have an ideal pre-sleep routine that would help you get a good night's sleep in the living environment you're describing - but maybe there are some things you can do to help even with those limitations.

I also want to acknowledge that reading about 'sleep hygiene' online can itself be really frustrating! The perfect ideal routine those sites describes seems impossible to me at least - and may actually be impossible based on living circumstances. E.g. I would read all the time would be that we shouldn't look at screens for 30-60 mins before sleep... idk about you, but for me that's impossible. I don't have the self control.

So what I ended up doing instead is just accepting that I'll probably be reading/watching something before sleep, but at least try to change that content to something that was at least neutral - or ideally positive/uplifting - instead of something that has my attention because it angers/upsets me.

Something small like that obviously won't change anything, but if it helped you get even an extra 5 minutes of better sleep, it might be worth it!

I enjoy a good movie or a good video game with an enjoyable narrative. Most recently the rachet and clank game came to pc and that was a fun time.

What sort of movies do you like? @Hanginthere

Do you like doing outdoor things too?

Thank you, I would like to socialise but I got very badly hurt going to church and now I'm very scared of talking to people.

Ive had similar troubles at work and now I mostly keep to myself and not say anything out of fear of getting hurt.

I'm really not sure what to do about it. I'm lonely but I'm scared of people.

Thank you, I currently see a counsellor but perhaps I need some help going through some form of step by step recovery process... I feel very broken.

I slept most of the day and watched some youtube. I will clean up the apartment tomorrow.

Thanks for asking, hope ur weekend is going nicely

I'm so sorry to hear you have been hurt by people in the past @Hanginthere .

I've had a similar experience. I lived many years hiding from the world because I had a lot of mistrust in people. Upon working in my psychologist, she told me, if you want to experience joy in life, you have to be ready to experience hurt. If you want relationships in life, you have to be ready to be misunderstood.

This always stuck with me. I'm still quite measured when talking to people, but I no longer have the social anxiety I used to have.

Do what's right for you. Consider how you want life to ideally be, and work towards that.