I can’t find peace

Hi @creative_writer

Thank you for sharing this. That sounds tough 💛

Are there some ways you can go gentle on yourself tonight?

Sending you lots of gentle vibes to get through this,

fluffylight x

@fluffylight, I think I need to do about the hypervilgiance, I always feel on guard. I was thinking of praying tonight, might try some relaxation too and skincare. My skin around my mouth is stinging and it’s not helping the situation (my sensitive skin hates tissues), probably should put some pawpaw on it. I hope the redness it gone soon, my face looks awful

💖

@wellwellwellnez, I think things are a lot easier when I let them be, instead of trying to fight against this storm. I feel like I am being weighed down, just not sure how to rise and become reborn from tornado. I find myself wanting to scream on top of my lungs, but all I am is silent. I don't even know what to do. I'm trying to get on with my day, uni pressure is building up because I am not staying on top of things due to my mental health.

Maybe the recent flashbacks have fucked up my mind, and this depression is never-ending. I actually ended up with passive SI during the flashbacks, it felt so awful, I didn't want to actively do anything, I just wanted to disappear off the face of the earth, and I didn't have SI for a while

I feel like I need to talk to someone, but I feel like I am better off alone than being misunderstood and judged by others. I feel like nobody has the emotional capacity to support me

Hi @tyme, it does help, but I guess that's all I have. I don't even know why I am hurting so much today. Things feel more intense right now, not entirely sure why either, you can't always predict the weather

@tyme, I could add to the poem that I recently started writing, not sure if I am up for a new one right now. I don't have plans for this weekend, so will be working on uni with breaks and self-care. I need to get as much done for my assignment, it's due Friday, but I probably will apply for an extension. Placement also starts next week, the schedule is going to get busier. I am also worried about being triggered on placement

I can’t fully trust people who try to help me. Why am I seeking help then?