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Trigger warning: Urges...

Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 10:58 am AEST

Trigger warning: Urges...

If I thought it would be helpful I'd go to the GP or I'd go to hospital but I know none of that is helpful. I know where I want to be but I can't see any way of getting there.

Major urge rn to hurt myself and more. Alone with these thoughts and isolated. It doesn't matter how low I am or whatever. Nothing matters anymore.

It is torture being like this. And it is sad that there is no support in my physical world. Maybe these people just expect you to disappear and then you aren't a problem anymore. Maybe that's what I'll just do. Because why carry on with this....

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amber22Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 11:27 am AEST

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Hey @Loz_3647

I'm sorry you're having such a tough morning. Is there anything you would like to speak about or get off your chest to make you feel a bit lighter?

Sending you hugs,

Amber22

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:04 pm AEST

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Idk but I am scared/concerned about where I am at....but then what does it matter....

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amber22Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:08 pm AEST

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Oh that is tough, I'm so sorry @Loz_3647

Is there something you can do to distract you from your worried thoughts at the moment? Something you can distract your mind with, even for a few minutes?

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:16 pm AEST

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I've tried this morning to focus on other things but I just can't get away from this. Things aren't going to go very well. I can't hold it in any longer

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amber22Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:23 pm AEST

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@Loz_3647 Is there someone you could call or potentially a help line (like SANE) so that you can chat to someone about these thoughts before acting on anything?

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:51 pm AEST

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Nobody can help with this. Previously tried talking about it but got me nowhere). Beyond help and hope. Doesn't matter anymore.

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amber22Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 12:56 pm AEST

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That's okay if you don't want to talk to anyone at the moment, but would something simple, like sitting out in the sun, or having a nap, or doing something small right now be helpful? @Loz_3647

You're not alone, I'm sitting with you Loz

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 1:00 pm AEST

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People literally just say what I've already done...and then because of how bad it is they say 'go to hospital' well I know exactly how that goes. They don't want to help. They don't care. They just send you out the door. Like yeah whatever....they couldn't give a damn what you're going through....same with family or whoever.

I've sat outside. I've sat inside.
I've sat in silence.
I've sat with music on.
I've tried reading something to distract but honestly my head is absolutely buzzing and my body feels physically overwhelmed. Nothing so far has helped and I can't hold off from this. I know what I need to do. And that's that. it doesn't matter anymore....theres no other way....

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 1:01 pm AEST

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It's torturous. And I cant deal with it....

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amber22Senior Contributor14 July 2023, 1:07 pm AEST

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I totally understand that, our mental health journeys are so individualised as well to ourselves, that sometimes it feels like others don't understand what we really need in the moment @Loz_3647

I guess that is when you need to channel into yourself and ask yourself what you need right now. Is it communication, to speak to others, to do something outside of your house, to curl up in bed and not move all day?

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