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yes its a mix take what you want, oeave what you do not @Appleblossom

I thought it a cut mnemonic, too, @Appleblossom. Said with a Thomas the Tank Engine pace...jibbedy fa, jibbedy fa. 😉

😊 That was Really Good. thankyou roomie @TAB

I don't know who the actor is - he is very good looking😛 lol

Great to get your replies @Appleblossom @Historylover Thanks peeps❤️

I read going to apologise for my post - I think I was expressing hostility, without awareness. Was having hard night.

Vivaciousness - Apple!! My head has been rolling like a dog on freshly mown grass, delighting in your choice of descriptor. I was even contemplating maybe you were being sarcastic! I'm not going to believe that. I want to believe you think I am vivaciousness. What an awesome word & huge compliment. I think you are vivacious too, come to think of it. I'm letting that one live in me for a while.

Sad news today, I tested + for covid. Last night I thought I was going to die, today I feel yuck, not dying. Never had it before. P*sses me off - that asshat of disease finally got it's 'spikes' into me. Makes sense, that I'm too stressed lately etc etc. Secretly enjoying not doing life.

@Historylover the strangest statement - at least to me,

"I've given up on anything to do with a god" Especially when 2 days ago I see a bumper sticker,

God isn't real.

Now, go enjoy your life

How do I explain this🤔

External release of deep dark secrets is def. Food for the soul. I think there is some quote that says, ' we don't talk to hear ourselves, we talk to see what we will say'

Or similar - I have likely stuffed it up.

It's in the release, that all these other things come out, no idea they were part of story. I think that, is the essence of why we Need permission to express freely. It's like, I don't actually know who I am - I start talking & surprise myself.

I recently uncovered incest that occurred in my teens. (With psychologist) I was not in denial, tho I had no idea because it was never open to be discussed. I was not aware of the guilt I was carrying, by, essentially having information that could implode family unit. Part of the victim mentality & how we take on so much guilt that is simply not ours - ON ANY LEVEL.

It's complex to explain here in few sentences. I hope I have given small insight.

I wanted to say more.

My covid head is throbbing.

I will have to skip church Apple. (maybe she told me, to let me know - I was not crazy??)

😷

Tom Laughlin @StanD he died 10 years ago age 82

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tom_Laughlin

had a very interesting life by sounds of it...

@Historylover Gentle Hugs

@StanD Your posts have been energetic and full of life that means Vivacious. Enjoy the compliment.

I did not go to church last week but have to go tmrw. Lots on. For me I feel there is a deeper aspect to church than just social, but I am not a God botherer. A lot depends on how we are received and if things unfold well. I like it to balance all the money minded shopping, and politics, and it can help with getting in touch with our deeper selves ... and hope that also touches others. I am curious how others believe what they believe, and what motivates them.

It helped break down my isolation, but I am learning to accept that a level of separateness is probably all for the good, as people are all so different, in background, belief and temperament.

@MissA Good to see you posting around the forums.

Gracious when we stuff up .... lol ... had not felt that til recently. A gracious God was even mentioned today. Times change. Interpretations change. Learning to roll with the rumbles.... but no longer required to deny them or pretend everything is fine. Allowed to speak freely in more situations. Realising that was very much my mother's impositions on me, rather than anything in the Good Book.

Learned to write freely, and shared a lot on here, for which I am grateful. Speaking straight and being heard and understood seems finally to be happening for me in the church context, so it feels a safer place for me, I know its not for everyone, and I accept that, and do not need to evangelise or guilt trip or apologise.

Funny tho, yesterday, the lady in non religious setting brough in guilt. Socialising is definitely tricky. Was feeling my way in the dark, but things are gradually more visible and alright. I am coping.

@Appleblossom that is so great that you are feeling safer in the church space. I went this morning and of course afterwards I chat with people I know, but I still find it hard to introduce myself or talk to someone I don't know, but I really want to expand my church friend circle. I am a little bit on the introverted side and my anxiety is a hinderance, but i will try as I know it can only be a positive thing. Have a fab week! 🙂

Thanks again Apple for illiterating (did I honestly use that correctly? Whoa) vivaciousness to me. I am those things, as well as sad, lonely, stumbling, as we all are. The recognition is beautiful gift. If it comes from you - I think I know it's worth. I will find the best word for you.

Yes, I appreciate your outlook on church. That is what I felt was my missing & never really knew where to look for it. It's a different type of activity. And, it's the people. Sharing of space, community for the sake of it. I'm not expressing as well as you. You helped me identify why I needed that.

In terms of God - for me - it's a no brainer. Is it the one the Bible? I suspect the pastor has his motives. Perhaps he is right? God, for me, Is. A presence that has existed from when time first began. An ancient protector - my (imaginary) friend 😊 I know him/her like I know me .... except in a higher knowledge type way. The more I seem to be learning, the clearer the view. Learning is good. I like the miracles - they are literal, yet not. One day ....

I WILL walk on water

I already know this. Will I literally, or will I achieve impossible to save loved ones in a fragile boat in an angry storm.?

I think we are all capable of we these types of miracles.

.....Maybe... We do it...., Everyday?

But can I walk on water, one day, too 🙏

Dance? Play music 🎺🎸🎹🎶

....With friends ???? 🌊🌊🌊

I'll start a walking group.

Covid, may have made me delirious. Love

@TAB @Historylover & all

Hi @StuF & @Bunniekins

xxxxx☁️🐍