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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

Loz_3647Senior Contributor06 July 2023, 9:45 pm AEST

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

Trigger warning!!

So after a sh*teeee week / day, I am drinking alone. Because why the f not. Nobody else gives a damn.

I've absolutely had enough of everyone and everything. I'm out here Winging it on my own. I tried to reach out believe it or not this week but you know what I just got told I'm being 'miserable'....oh and then today my husband questions whether we should be together....thanks a bunch....Ive Only been trying to keep everything together for everyone and now you don't want to be with me....maaaaate, it was only 9 months ago I caught you cheating on me.... absolute joke....

Plus in top of that I have had my past coming back to haunt me. Finding out things I should have known time ago. Thanks family for.... nothing....massive increase in FLASHBACKS and nightmares Asif I don't have enough on my plate.

I honestly feel done tonight. I've been exhausted mentally and physically. I just can't. What's the use. I try and then J get. Nowhere.

So here I am drinking alone. Already had the dark thoughts but this is honestly just too much now. I can't help but question why I am here? What purpose do I actually serve? Because quite frankly it doesn't feel like I do....

It laughable....

Family don't want to help and not doe the 'medical' system....

Can all get f*cked in my books. I tried, there....

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In response to: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

Kyle1Senior Contributor06 July 2023, 9:56 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

@Loz_3647 maybe not so alone...

I'm sipping some jameson. To be honest with you, though, I'm not really feeling it...

I got a better kick out of real life comedy clips on insta ... !

It's a wacky world.

In response to: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

tymeModerator06 July 2023, 10:00 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

That's sounds so challenging @Loz_3647 . I'm sorry you feel so alone in this. It must be so difficult to have such limited support, especially when times are so tough.

Would it help to consider things that you live for? I recognise this may be difficult right now, but when you feel able, consider the things that put a smile on your face. Consider what makes you keep going even when you really don't want to.

In my most acute period, it was kids that got me out of bed. Kids who put a smile on my face. Kids who turned my moment right around so that I could see some element of light.

Next, it was my work. I was committed to my responsibility at work, and this kept me alive many times.

By sharing, I hope you can also find something/s that keep you here.

You are not alone.

In response to: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

ArraDreamingSenior Contributor06 July 2023, 10:21 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

all good mate I’m about to crack open a tinny on my own here too, not alone

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AussieRechargerSenior Contributor07 July 2023, 9:22 am AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

@Loz_3647 Hope today goes better for you. Good luck.

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tymeModerator08 July 2023, 4:17 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

Hey @Loz_3647 ,

Just wanted to check-in with you to see how you are. I acknowledge it's been a difficult ride lately.

How's today? Did you do anything special?

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor08 July 2023, 9:00 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

If I was honest with my response, I'd get banned....best I keep schtum.

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tymeModerator08 July 2023, 9:06 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

Fair enough @Loz_3647 . I'm hearing what that means then.

I'm here for a bit longer if you want a chat.

What does recovery look like to you? What steps do you think you can take to get to this ideal state?

You are not alone.

Thinking of you.

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Loz_3647Senior Contributor08 July 2023, 9:29 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

I'll be careful with how I respond to that. But honestly, i have no idea as I actually can't see a way out of this. Well I can, but let's not go there....

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tymeModerator08 July 2023, 9:43 pm AEST

Re: TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ Drinking alone // darkness

I'm reading between the lines @Loz_3647 . You have been so brave in reaching out in the first place. The journey can be so dark and lonely sometimes. In the darkness, we sometimes don't even realise how much people appreciate us (you), and what you mean to people in this world.

Our mind likes to tell us to find an out, yet in reality, the light is just there. Allow it to brighten your day. Look at the smiles of people who appreciate you. There are people here who have mentioned how much they want to connect with you.

There is something in you that is waiting to be shared and to make a difference to people's lives (for the better). And for your own too.

I believe in that @Loz_3647

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